Treat Yourself!

I took a lot of time off to work on me.

I was dealing with fear of the unknown, panic attacks, sleepless nights, and constant uncertainty. It got to the point where I knew I couldn’t continue without help, so I found a therapist.

After many sessions of hashing out why I couldn’t sleep at night, the panic attacks I experienced, and my life circumstances, I was told I had Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and, as it turns out, runs in my family. My grandma has it, my mom has it, and now I have it.

I was too nervous about medication, so I avoided it at all costs. My therapist and I worked through pretty much my whole life, and I learned a lot about what drove my anxieties and how to manage them in a healthy way.

We talked about the subconscious, thought-stopping, and how panic attacks only last around 10-15 minutes and were not life-threatening. During the attacks, however, I always felt I was going to suffer a heart attack. Naturally, a lot of people who experience panic attacks feel the same way.

I cannot begin to express how encouraging it was to simply put a name to my experience and realize I was not alone. Even though GAD is something I will have to manage my whole life, I can learn tools to cope with the experience and still have a fulfilling life.

It took quite a while before the tools I learned actually began to take effect. It really wasn’t until I started to take control of my life that I felt I was starting to improve. I decided that my next course of action was to apply to law school, which, as I quickly learned, takes some time!

I joined the Law School Admissions Council, signed up for the LSAT, bought some study materials and off I went! The time it took in between studying and waiting for the test to approach felt like forever.

In between those periods, I noticed my anxiety would surface more, because I felt it wasn’t happening soon enough and I was afraid I would get stuck. However, what helped me the most in dealing with my anxiety, was to picture that subconscious anxious part of myself as a little 4-year-old me. I learned to talk to her gently, reassuringly, and calmly. I may have needed to repeat myself to her a few times before she would quiet down, but she always would without fail. The more I practiced this, the less time it took for me to calm myself.

So, I got an okay-ish score on the first go-around of the LSAT, but I have signed up for the next one and am surely not giving up! I know this is what I want for myself and I know I will end up there. As for the school, I’m just aiming for the best one I can get into.

It’s been a few months since I’ve last seen my therapist, as I’ve found my ability to gain my strength back and “walk on my own”, so to speak. Overall, I saw him for just about one year and learned so much about myself. If anyone feels uncertain about therapy and maybe is on the fence, as I was for a period of time, I say go for it. It was one of the best things I did!

Self-work, self-care, and healing are incredibly important and need to be a priority in our crazy action-filled lives. Don’t wait til the last minute to take care of yourself! It is not a shame to seek help. The time I took off to heal myself will stay with me my whole life.

Please feel free to share your experiences below!

As always, thanks for reading!~

Alexzandra, CIC

 

 

 

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Spring Cleaning Updates~

Hello all!

I know I’ve been gone, but I’m back and figured it’s time for an update!

I’ve read through some comments and will be updating the Dressing your truth Style Questionnaire and adding more posts for you to look forward to!

Just in case you’re interested, my hiatus has been spent figuring out my future, what I want my life to look like, and where I’m headed. All will be shared in a post soon so keep your eyes peeled for that if you wanna know!

For those who’ve read, commented, liked, and followed, I love you all and am grateful for you! Please continue to read, comment, like, share, and follow! This blog is built for all sorts of discussions on seasonal color analysis, DYT, beauty, fashion, pugs, and all things pink and glittery!

I look forward to hearing more from you guys (please don’t take offense; I call everyone/everything “guys”)!

As always, thanks for reading!

-Alexzandra, CIC